huggingcompetition: (Default)
Emil Nekola ([personal profile] huggingcompetition) wrote2017-08-26 06:43 am
Entry tags:

[personal profile] redheadedstepson Terra Firma


Getting shot through space would be traumatic if you weren't asleep and/or being beamed through it at the speed of life itself. It only felt like he'd had a long, restless sleep when Emil's eyes opened to focus blearily not on the smooth metal ceiling of his tiny apartment, or, more often than not, someone else's, but on the generically spackled ceiling of a hotel room in Malay. He was sure he was dreaming at first; he'd had dreams like this before, where he was back on earth and preparing to go about his day, at least until someone new happened out of the bathroom, or turned over beside him in the bed, but a quick glance around told him the one thing that made his heart sink straight into his stomach.

"Reno?"

Silence. just wind and surf and birds outside the cracked open window, and his own pulse plodding along strangely placidly.

He checked his phone to confirm what the date was, finding himself only a little bit alarmed to find out that time had passed here. Not much, but some. Enough to have taken up his vacation before he had to head home and begin arranging for the next winter sports season.

It would go like that for months after arriving back home and settling back into his routines. Wake up, work out, practice, visit with friends and family, with the underlying feeling that something was just off. It almost felt wrong just going back to his life now.

Sometimes, he'd try to talk to a concerned friend asking questions. Explain that he wasn't sleeping well. Making an effort to rationalize that he wasn't unjustified in feeling like something was missing or wrong. He had so much on his phone that confirmed what he already knew: this "dream" of his, about all of these people he'd met, couldn't be fake. He had photos taken of the park, of ladies he'd made friends with, of interesting people he'd met in the observatory or at the rink, of Koller and Reno and Mo Guanshan and Sam. He still had messages from some of them.

He reread those a lot as time went on. He couldn't possibly have fabricated those, surely. He'd start doubting every so often, wondering if it was all an elaborate, staged thing, like he'd been brainwashed. He joked that he'd been abducted by aliens, which did throw off some concern with the humor of it, but feeling so left of center never really stopped.

Even when the world started turning into the sort of low-key hell that had always been predicted by the sci-fi writers of the last century, Emil kept going. He went to the finals another few times, even making it to the Four Continents, with a piece that he'd choreographed on his own, to a remixed piece that he'd once worked on when he was still in his "dreamstate". That year he dressed in red with a yakuza-style phoenix emblazoned on his costume's back.

The summer after, he opted to take time off from his normal busy schedule to spend time close to home with his family, to reflect on what he wanted to do with the few years he had left in his skating career. He only had a few years left in him after all, as his body filled out and matured. He'd kept his hair short and feathery, but let his beard grow fuller and make his face much more mature. He walked the streets of Prague like anyone would the streets of home, having moved here the year prior after leaving his parents' home. It had been a move advised by his coach and some well-meaning publicists after some suspicious occurrences, including redirected phone calls and some increasingly freaky "fan-mail" that had apparently never had a name or return address attached. He'd been curious, but followed the advice nonetheless, if only to keep his actual fans from going on some kind of witch hunt.

Pulling out of his distraction for a moment, he stops in his meandering path through a small city park to sit and take a moment to zone out, a tablet in his lap for his fingers to flick across mindlessly. It's become home to a massive photo gallery, transferred from his phone when it was finally on the verge of death. The background of it is, predictably, a starfield, though if anyone looked closely enough at it they would realize that it isn't the view from anywhere on earth. In one corner of the image is a figure standing without paying attention, a shock of red hair tied and twisted into a haphazard bun over a simple tshirt, hint of tattoo peeking from the collar. Emil finds himself glancing back at it as he scrolls through an article linked from his Twitter feed, barely absorbing a word as his mind wanders.
redheadedstepson: (pic#10919522)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-08-31 02:04 pm (UTC)(link)
"Safe? Me? Please," the Turk snorts, rolling his eyes and smiling, hugging back because it felt right and good. He still let go, sliding away with no small amount of reluctance. Nodding, he stuffs his hands in his pockets and heads off, though he stops just around a corner, watching Emil leave, watching movement behind windows, watching the locale.

A nice place for a nice boy, where his home was a bad place for a bad boy.

Almost like starting over all the way back in the beginning, when he was still a stupid teenager. Back before he'd done horrible things just to get by.

Can people really start fresh? Completely? Maybe, he muses, smiling to himself and making his meandering way home. Back to his mattress on the floor, his milk-crate shelves, his box TV and his empty fridge. Except now he doesn't have to hate his empty space so much anymore, a little bearded ray of light in an otherwise dismal day keeping him above water.

Getting his hopes up was harmless in the end, the familiar shock of red hair turning a corner. He was in a hideous Hawaiian shirt and khaki slacks with brown loafers, an expensive-looking watch on one wrist looked at quite pointedly as he walks up, smirking at the skater.

"What's this, so eager to get lunch you're waiting outside ahead of time? Tsk, I hope you weren't left hungry too long?"
redheadedstepson: (pic#10919546)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-08-31 03:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You said you already had a place in mind," the Turk murmurs, busy looking down at his shirt and trying to find any fault in the blue birds and bright pineapples on a background of palm trees and badly drawn waves. Well...maybe it's a little loud. But only a little!

"Leaving without me? I really don't think you should make it a trend," he remarks dryly, arching a brow at the other man. He raises a hand before Emil can protest the unfair comment.

"It's a joke. I'm over it. I freaked out for the first few months. By now I'm just..." he shrugs, unable to really describe his state of mind beyond 'fine', which was never an accurate enough assessment. Fine described an Amazon package, not a person's feelings.

"Anywhere that has crepes, if you know them. I'm a fuckin' sucker for crepes. They're the coolest thing. Breakfast? Crepe. Lunch? Crepe. Dinner? Crepe. Dessert? CREPE. There's nothin' you can't get!"
redheadedstepson: (14)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-01 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't grouse. The only thing that got me through all of it, aside from sheer stubbornness, was self-deprecating humor. Cut myself a little all the time so the bigger hurts get lost. It works for a while," he muses, shrugging slightly and shaking out both hands before reaching over and poking a finger gently against Emil's cheek.

"You missed me...right?" he asks, looking genuinely concerned. He knew he hadn't been forgotten, knew he wasn't an unpleasant memory, but now he didn't know if it was love anymore. At least, he didn't know if it were reciprocated love. He'd never stopped pining for Emil. It was never about the drugs, for Reno. He couldn't speak for the other man, though.

"Mm...nevermind. Let's talk about something else, yeah?" Because he doesn't want to know. Doesn't want to hear the answer yet, if it were no.

"I talked to the guys--" meaning the gang members he was affiliated with "--and they're gonna help me get sorted with documents. Just the basics. Apparently it's not that hard to get legitimized as a citizen at all, with the right channels. I gotta run jobs for them for a little while longer, but nothing big. The usual stuff. It'll pay for the papers without dipping into my savings. Apparently I was born in Pavlov," he chuckles, arching a brow before gesturing vaguely.

"We should visit one day. It looks nice. Small. Old."
redheadedstepson: (2)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-01 04:08 am (UTC)(link)
"Hey, genius, we're trying to make me a Czech citizen, not Japanese. A criminal record with no legal visas could get me deported to a country I don't know any better than another. So I'm Japanese-Czech, so what?" Reno snorts, rolling his eyes and reaching into his back pocket. He pulls out a lollipop, of all things, peeling the wrapper off and sticking it into his mouth as he walked. It had kept him from other less savory distractions like smoking, after all, and it actually made for a more intimidating look, the way he kept the stick out the side of his mouth, like stereotyped gangsters with their toothpicks.

"I still do speak Japanese, evidently. Something with a Yokohama accent? Anyways, they use me for liaisons with overseas constituents." A nice way of saying Yakuza associates, but they were being delicate. Everyone here assumes I'm running from an old gang in Japan, everyone from Japan is confused about where I'm from because my tattoos are authentic and my language is fluent, but I'm a ghost there. It's actually kinda nice, everyone spreading wild rumors about me and all of them being wrong."

He smiles, shrugging and stuffing his hands in his pockets as they walk, gazing up at the clouds idly. The candy clicks against his teeth as he rolls it with his tongue, thinking.

"When do you leave again?" he asks, glancing over at the skater from the corner of his vision, still keeping his face skyward, casual. The seasons rolled quickly and Reno still doesn't full grasp the circuits, but he knows Emil won't stay in Prague forever. He'll have to figure out his situation before then.
redheadedstepson: (pic#10919539)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-01 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yep, just you. I wouldn't trust anyone else anyways. I didn't even want to approach anyone we knew, just in case, y'know?" Further highlighting how alone he'd been, though he'd long stopped looking at it that way. There were millions of distractions in this world that didn't exist in his own.

"I know! I saw. I was there..." he murmurs, scratching one eyebrow, candy clicking softly as he smiles. "I attended as many of your shows as I could, though I was pretty much always in the nosebleeds. It was a pretty good consolation. You looked amazing," he muses, reaching up to clasp his hands behind his head, eyes still skyward.

"Huh?" he pauses, blinking a moment and lowering his hands with a small frown. "Emil, I don't know anything about skating. Not really. Asking me for help is like saying 'Eh, I'm not really interested in the gold, psh'. I mean, seriously."
redheadedstepson: (pic#11045764)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-01 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
"I...guess. I'll help with whatever you want, but I don't want to be responsible for screwing everything up for you," the redhead murmurs, unsure, even while flattered.

If he knew Emil's thoughts he may have commented on already feeling dismissed by the ignored letters and gifts. He'd given up on pushing contact by that point, determining that face-to-face was the only thing that would suffice and that he went to the performances because he wouldn't miss them for anything.

Even when they got him in trouble with the gang for his absences during important issues.

Only in retrospect was sending clippings of hair and such probably weird enough to get thrown out, but he didn't understand the concept of people not getting their own mail, back then. everything was a learning curve for him.

"We should go skating sometime, though. I don't fall down anymore," he smirks, shrugging slightly. In fact, he had learned more than a few moves, and could do jumps effortlessly. No more fear of frozen water and knives on his feet.
redheadedstepson: (pic#11045763)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-02 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Hm? Yeah, sure!" Reno replies with a relaxed enthusiasm, nodding for emphasis. "If the fee isn't too much I'll come skate there, too. Not doubt a hell of a lot better maintained than the one I go to. I learned how to drive a zamboni because their guy was always off drunk somewhere. I probably spend as much time tending the ice as actually skating it," he huffs a sigh, rolling his eyes irritably.

"You should consider pairs," he remarks after a moment of silent thought.

"Your style lends itself really well to a more interactive format. Like...you do things that are pretty impressive, but alone a lot of your performances seem like there's supposed to be someone else there with you. If you had a partner worth anything, I think you'd take gold, easy. When it comes to individual sets, no offense, but your choices really aren't as gripping as Katsuki's or Plisetsky's."

Yeah Emil, he's been paying attention. A lot, evidently. The things that had mattered to Emil became important to the redhead in the Czech's absence. He even took a few public courses on astronomy (which served a double purpose because he needed a basic education and getting to at least 8th grade level was not something he could ask anyone to help with).

"You've gotten damn close more than once. Last years performance...well. It's pretty obvious that when there's any deeper meaning behind a set, the passion for the performance is what carries it just as much as individual talent. If you did something you really, genuinely, liked along with your physical ability and personal talent, there's no reason you can't take gold. I truly believe that."
redheadedstepson: (pic#10919533)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-10 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well, you're passionate about everything you love," Reno observes, tone thoughtful. "Because of that, when you want to express something specific, the minutae gets lost on people that wouldn't know personally what you're trying to say." He shrugs slightly, expression apologetic. He doesn't see anything wrong with what Emil does, how, or why. The only reason it's a problem is because it won't win anything, and that's what the Olympics are about.

"My passion is...complicated, I guess. I'm either into something or I'm not. There's not really a bland middle ground. But more often than not, I ain't into somethin'. So when I put my head down and aim for what I want it can get...uh...volatile, I guess," he shrugs, rubbing under his nose lightly and glancing away.

Pretty much why he was a good thug; his temper was fairly black and white.

"Well, I'll come skate with you, if that's something you want. Not competitively - tch, they'd never have me." He knows from personal experience, turned away at the doors more than once just because he couldn't prove citizenship. Why should that matter? It's nothing he understands.

"But maybe if you have someone else on the ice with you, you'll get what I'm saying? You can't tell me you're ready to throw in the towel? You're not that old, yo. That Scott Hamilton guy skated into his fifties and battled cancer. Anyone that gives up under that kinda shadow never really cared in the first place."
redheadedstepson: (pic#11101745)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-21 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
Evidently Reno felt the same way, because he sighed, raising both hands in a gentle stopping motion.

"Ok. Fine, fine. We can talk about something else. Whatever." It irked him that emil was being so hard-headed, refusing to keep working for what he loved just because of a small complication, but it could be addressed some other time. They didn't need to fight when their relationship was barely attached by threads anymore.

Maybe that revelation hurt the most, Reno looking away miserably, hiding the brief spasm of pain. Maybe he shouldn't have come, he muses, chewing the inside of his cheek briefly before inhaling and forcing one of those trademark grins. Keep swimming, right? Like that little blue fish lady said.

"Two please!" the redhead gestured as they closed on the front of the restaurant. Ushered in, Reno was just glad to sit for a moment, focus on something else, like the fuckin' drink menu.

"Huh...they've got a lot of stuff on tap," he murmurs, all but announcing his intention of drinking. Of course, Reno drank to escape, so it was a pretty big tell how distressed he was silently feeling over the entire situation.
redheadedstepson: (pic#7358207)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-26 01:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Looking up and seeing the face Emil was pulling, Reno chewed the inner corner of his lips before setting the drink menu aside. Maybe a beer with the meal, depending on what he got, but...nothing heavy. If things fell apart at last, he didn't want to be the reason.

"I'm a thug, Emil. I was never very good at anything else," he murmurs, reaching out unthinking to put his hand in the skater's. If the Czech boy thought Reno was going to distance himself, he was wrong. He'd been so alone. Having committed the only good parts of himself to Emil, they were lost without the skater. Just those tiny moments of connection were reminders that he'd been good, or tried to be good, once.

"I scoot around on the frozen water a lot these days, so not like I can lip off about it," he murmurs, staring down at their hands, expression distantly hurt, even as he struggles to keep that smile consistent.

"I took all the knowledge Koller spilled us and used it to my advantage, got in with one of the lower tier gangs. They kept me as legal as I had to be to stay in the country. It was a good place to be in touch with people that could forge citizenship whenever I needed to go somewhere. Easy money."
redheadedstepson: (pic#7358204)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-26 02:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"A lot more derogatory talk gets flung around than I'm used to," he admits, reaching up and scratching the side of his head with his free hand.

"I get called a queer and faggot and stuff, though usually without the malice the words usually suggest. They can't really reconcile those two sides, which is fine. I don't need their approval past doing my job well. But I wouldn't get involved with them if I were you. There's gonna be enough trouble when they find out you and I are close. They love blackmailing and extorting anyone with a position greater than their own," he sighs, rolling his eyes and leaning back a bit to slouch in the chair, though he's careful not to pull his hand away.

"I wouldn't really call it a good life. I squirrel away whatever money I can, but I live in a shithole and the nicest things I own are my clothes. not these ones. My suits and stuff. Don't judge my wardrobe on this set."
redheadedstepson: (pic#7358215)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson 2017-09-26 02:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Reno appreciates the order for the beers, noting to himself to behave for Emil's sake, particularly since he'd made the allowance. Ordering a couple appetizers, Reno's main order is for an entirely overstuffed savory meal. Unsurprising. When the server leaves,teal eyes turn on the other man.

"I promise I haven't committed any violent crime or anything. I was doin' my best to stay out of trouble. If I found you, if we found each other again, I didn't want to be someone you'd have to be embarrassed or ashamed by."

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-26 15:37 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 00:05 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 00:25 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 00:50 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 03:22 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 03:51 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-27 16:13 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 03:14 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 04:45 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 05:08 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 13:51 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 14:49 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 15:20 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 15:40 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 16:07 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 16:55 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 17:31 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 18:05 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 18:23 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 19:06 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-29 19:50 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-09-30 08:14 (UTC) - Expand

(no subject)

[personal profile] redheadedstepson - 2017-10-01 13:05 (UTC) - Expand